Starting the new year by taking out some of the negatives in my life. I unfriended the most condescending, hateful and angry person I know. I call him out on something stupid once and now were on bad terms. Just like that. I’m happy I got to meet my favorite band because of him but it’s hard for me to feel compassion for someone who sits behind a computer and says shit like “9/11 was an inside job” and “omg shut up about (insert recently dead celebrity here) go kill yourself you dumb fucking fuck”. Being compassionate for an actor who makes movies people enjoy is such a scumbag thing to do now days, or anyone relevant or important at the time. So fucking hardcore until he breaks up with his hoodrat girlfriend, then post sad song lyrics and shit, and get back with her after not 1, but 3 fucking times. Even after the whole world tells him “fuck that bitch, you deserve better”. And she’s fucking pregnant too, and she took the baby too? After she left you 3 times DOES IT REALLY FUCKING SURPRISE YOU??? Truth is I wish him the best with everything, I tried the best i could to be a friend, I have nothing to apologize for. If I see him again I bro nod and move on with my life. I don’t hate him, I don’t hate anybody, but he’s not someone I need in my life right now. And I honestly hope he has good things coming to him. Lord knows he needs it more than anything.
Second-whether I find a job soon or not I’m quitting my job. I want to focus on school, but I also need money. I can bounce back, I know what I’m capable of and I can do tasks that are asked. I can find something better. I can compare my work relationship to a shitty girlfriend. Treats me like shit, but I could have it better somewhere else. So now time to start looking for new work.
I’m gonna be more healthy with myself. I’ve ate so much I feel like I might die of a heart attack by the time I’m 30. Dying young is not what I want to do. I’m also gonna start telling myself I can. And nothing is impossible. I’m gonna make serious moves, and serious choices. I’m gonna make this year count.